Friday, September 30, 2011
This week has been a challenging one! I faced an impossible situation with absolutely no way to fix it. There was absolutely nothing I could do. So I got on my knees and I prayed. I wrote about it in depth yesterday, in the post "Standing at the Crossroads." To quote my post, and my prayers: "God I can't do a thing to make this situation come together- but YOU can. I trust you and tonight I need to hear your voice. I know that you directed me down this path- which means you will either bring provision or wisdom."
I hit a wall. A tall, unsurmountable, unsurpassable wall. I needed a miracle to get me to the other side or some immediate direction from God guiding me in how to get over, under or around. I prayed, I kneeled, I worshipped, I cried. When I finished, I had no more answers than when I started. No answers... but I heard a still small voice... God reminded me in prayer last night that He is faithful. Then today, He showed me!
Today started the same as every other, and while sitting in a business training meeting, I got the text! The provision came, God showed up! Yes, once again, My God is faithful!!! I almost feel like a fool for worrying or letting it get me to a place of concern. But in all honesty, I believe that was part of the lesson. I prayed for provision or wisdom- but God answered and brought both. He brought me the answer I needed, and direction to keep me from being in this same position again. And I should never be ashamed for allowing a situation to bring me to my knees. There is something powerful about coming to the end of ourselves.
By facing the unscalable wall I not only got to see God's hand move, but I realized my shortfalls, and have made adjustments to overcome them. I realized that the equipment I carry, and my level of skill is sufficient for fences- not walls! Scaling a fence takes a small amount of knowledge and experience. It is a small obstacle, with a small prize. What lies on the other side of the fence is rewarding but limited: a backyard, a pool, a park, etc. But a wall is much more difficult, with much more reward! In ancient days walls were built around an entire city! Everything you needed for a sustained and enjoyable life lay within the city walls. And once within those city walls you had complete provision and security. Scale a fence- experience a backyard. Scale a wall- experience a city! Why should I settle for a limited victory, a limited experience? God has more in store for me than what lies behind a fence, he wants me to scale walls!