Friday, April 6, 2012
What Really Matters
Over the last few months God has been stripping me. He has been stripping me of pride, and making me humble. He has been stripping me of my status, which I derived from the quality of my house, and making me find my status in him. He has stripped away my debt, and made me financially stable. He has stripped me.
What really matters? What really matters for me? Its not the house, or the location. Its the people that fill it. I was empty and neglected. I was betrayed and manipulated. I was left broken, shattered, and hungry for love. What really matters to me? Its not about provision, paying the bills, or fitting into my nice little life. What really matters is someone who truly loves me and is able to show it. What really matters is someone who will receive the love I have to give. What really matters is someone who I can enjoy life with. What really matters is a relationship where we see each other for the gift we are, and encourage each other.
What really matters for my son? My son had a great dad. He would come home and play with him for hours. He was firm when needed and loving at the same time. What really matters to my son? Its not the gifts someone brings. Its not being in a certain community over others. What really matters to my son is a man who can love him as his own. A man who can be firm when he needs it, but also through him on his shoulders just for fun. What really matters is a family he can be a part of, siblings he can play with. What really matters is a man who can model how to be a man of God, and help me raise him to love Jesus above all else.