Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Now I love my son, more than anything in this world! He is my sunshine, no doubt! But its exhausting being "on" all the time. I'm constantly drained, constantly tired, and constantly wishing I could have a break. Well this weekend I got one! It was the first time I really got away and got to be "Jenn", in 14 months. I went up north for 3 full days, and my son stayed behind at a good friend's house. I knew he was in good hands, and was getting some quality "guy time" which he seriously needed. I had a great weekend, saw some of the local sights, hung out with friends at a game night, and even got in a nice 6.5 mile run!
When I left him I had tears in my eyes. And when I picked him up I swear he seemed much older. But beyond that, something happened this weekend. The long awaited break and relaxation I've been missing happened. When I arrived home all I wanted to do was be with my boy. I even let him stay up late because I missed him and genuinely wanted to stay around him. And the next day I took the entire day off and spent the majority of my time with him. We played, we did crafts, and we read. For the first time in a long time I had energy and desire to play with him. I didn't have a list on the top of my head of all the things I needed to do. I had a refreshing of patience. I had a new strength. And it showed up in my interactions with him.